A not really new beginning

28/7/2013 

3years old, determine you at 80years old. I think this is a true statement. You can’t change your personality in just a day or a month time. It’s not like when you want to start a new life and then your wish will be fulfilled. Time is needed and most importantly your own effort is needed. Nothing will be changed if you say things without any actions. Nice. Just admit that you are what you are. And thus, a not really new beginning has begun.

Life in Macau, it could be awesome or lifeless. It’s all depends on your choice. Of course most of the time needs to look at your work schedule as well, not to mention the operations department. Currently, I am lifeless. Woke to work, back and sleep. It keeps going round and round. At least for the first week. Predictable, it would be continuously be the same for another 10 weeks which is about two months time. It’s fate. You can’t do anything when you are penniless. Luckily not homeless. =.= A friend asked me, where are you planning to go on your off day. And I said, I am not going anywhere, except to hand in a form to the office. That’s all. Because I can’t afford the entertainment and the expenses when I am out of the house such as f&b all, at least for now. It’s okay! Endurance is needed at this critical time. I would stay patient to go through this kind of suffering days. No problem.

Well, I’ve started my job for a week. I thought that I could handle this before I came here, because I have friends working in Genting before, and they described many about it so I thought, if they could do it, I can do the same too! However, yes, I should be able to take it, but with quite some effort and good memory! I know I will be categorized under the strawberry generation when I say need some effort in job. Well, which job doesn’t require effort? I know it’s not easy, but I am not gonna quit. HAHA! Say only larr, who knows one year later and I am gone? Be frank, on the first few days, I seriously tensed out! Sometimes, I couldn’t have a nice sleep. All my dreams were about my job the work. I forced myself to study the procedure again and again. It was like having an exam later and I am doing last minute revision. Sigh. 

I have a sarcastic senior. Sometimes some sarcastic statement just popped out from his mouth and I felt so irritated! “Alright, after learning for a month and you can go back to Malaysia!” =.= wtf! I wish I could give him a punch! When I said I don’t miss my home right now because just two weeks time passed, should I start missing Malaysia?! Then I am labeled heartless. =.= I seriously don’t know what to say. Understand that every company has a devil which everyone hates so much, it’s a norm but I just don’t like it! And I don’t like to act busy in front of bosses. I don’t like to talk when I am doing work. I don’t like to do useless things such as walking around the space, to show people that you are working. Why so serious dear boss? Maybe I am just too innocent and naïve.

Being innocent and naïve is not a bad thing. I wanna be a good person. HAHA. I don’t mind if you say “what a stupid girl”. Everyone lives different life. You can’t expect people to live the way you are. Right? You are aggressive, or you are after brands, or you are down to earth, or mean, whatever. No problem, just choose a tape and record your life in it. You direct your own story, don’t listen to anyone else. Those are just suggestions, not a compulsory step.

I always whisper in my heart, do what you want and what you like. Success is not a mandatory stage in one’s life, just be happy and be yourself, as long as you put in effort in living your own good life. Money is important. Without money you are nothing. Money is also dirty. With money you can do everything. There is no fixed definition for life, because everyone has their own pathway. Don’t get jealous on others, you will have it, if its meant to be. 

I am someone who don't care for the future. I don't yearn for a bright bright shining future. I just wanna live a peaceful and contented life with my own colours in it. That's all I wanna be, and that's where I am moving to.

♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ Life

21.7.2013

The first post about myself in Macau, but couldn’t upload instantly as I am still expecting the uncle to install the internet. Life without internet is just like a washroom without a door. Kns!

Start from my arrival, I saw first the City of Dreams, Hard Rock and so on because they are near to the airport. Just beside, I supposed. Well, first arrival, the luck that welcomes us wasn’t a bright one. (us as in myself with another colleague). SO NOT A GOOD DAY. Someone else accidentally took the wrong luggage, where supposable belongs to my colleague. LOL Insane! When I look at the two luggages it doesn’t look the same at all! Very luckily that wrong guy realized before he went to somewhere else, so we were able to exchange back. First incident.

On the other side, I am lucky too to have known this colleague because he has some local friends in Macau. So we don’t have to fan about the way to our budget hotel, instead we have a driver! HAHA! It’s really bad to quote him as a driver. Okay, so I was happily carry my luggage into the car and heading to our budget hotel location. While on the way, I saw those buildings, the Macau Tower, the signboard, road sign, and just another murmuring started in my heart that, I am finally in Macau! After months of waiting, I am finally here to start my brand new life! ^^ Not to say brand new, but at least I am on my own! I don’t rely to the family from now onwards, I won’t have to say “Maa..help me”…something like that. Only the first month where I have to borrow some money for house rental those.  

The second incident happened when we arrived to our budget hotel. The pipe was broken! Water was everywhere in the house. LOL. Such a dramatic event huh! But the owner was so nice that she reserved another hotel for us in next few streets. Meaning, we have to carry and push our entire luggage from one point to the other. Seriously, tiring! Almost 30kg on me! When we finally arrived, there was no elevator and its situated on second floor. Wuuhoooo…! Crazy! Thanks to my colleague for carrying the two 20kg luggage up to second floor, and when check out, carry it back to downstairs. Kesian.

Upon check out, we were being fetched to company by driver for trying on our uniforms and signing of documents and the like. Spent some time there. Haih. But why rain! I seriously admire the weather, it rains from 11 to 6/7pm nonstop. It was indeed irritating! I don’t like holding umbrella, walking in the rain, in the streets, where there was no space at all for you to move, since everyone was holding umbrella too. The street became so narrow and everyone was like rushing here and there, why so rush! I don’t like being push and asked to walk faster.

Oh yeah! And...also we went to CTM to get a mobile numbers, and after all I’ve chosen a package with 1gb data usage with 100minutes of calling. I just know that Macau is applying charges to both parties, means no matter you are calling or answering call, there is charges to your bill, and just know, Singapore is the same too. Why like that huh? I don’t really understand. So, the third incident happened. HAHA Seems the bad luck was with us all the time, but specifically to my colleague. Both of us chosen the 1gb with 100min prepaid package, mine was alright. But, for my colleague case, the salesperson did no registered the 1gb plan for him, just a usual mop100 prepaid usage in the phone, without the 1gb data. But did not know until he found out that he couldn’t go online any longer, while after checking data usage, it was only 8mb used. So we went to another CTM outlet, and they told that he did not registered successfully this plan. At last, he has to pay another mop100 for this plan. =.= What a bad bad super bad days.

Am so fatigue to get myself think back these incidents. It’s just too many! Well, story doesn’t end here. There was the 4^th incident. HAHA Its about our house loh! Simplified version, we were not allowed to move in until the owner has signed the agreement. But we have already checked out of our hotel and there is no any budget hotel around. Why why why! So end up I live in a luxury hotel, HAHA!  XD

PS: Macau has quite a lot of handsome!! 

♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ her job!

Please rain.

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.and still sighing. I couldn't describe my current state now. Its not that uncomfortable to stay at home this long. Who doesn't love lazing at home watching TV shows or spent some time on the dramas with one hand holding chips and another with coke? I love it!

Wasting time on the dramas, the korean shows, discussing with friend which movie to watch tonight, skyping with the friends over there in UK, and whatsoever, day and night. Woke on the noon, slept on the midnight. I am super duper free now. Free as in the bad way. I don't like it already.

It doesn't matter if you work from home, or if you are a housewife, or you are a boss! No body will have any words on you. It matters when you do not have a serious job and dumping your life into just like that! Yeah, who else? It's me, myself, the useless noob. At the time being, all the voices will come from your surrounding area. LOL. Yeahh, those who comes near to you and start showing off their nagging skills. How impressive and how it trigger you mood for the whole day.

ARghh! My brain is gonna explode, my eyes gonna have the intimate specs, and eventually gonna acquire bigger size clothes. LOL wtf! and its so freaking HOT right now that I couldn't get on bed. I can even see my sweat evaporating. kns! Having a nice good quality sleep is just another wish of mine. 

Please rain! 








♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ freedom.