身不由己

If you could see both situation, standing in their shoes, no matter how heavenly or hell-y either one is,  you would still be able to look at it with one open heart. You might have reactions like unwilling, disgusting, frustrating, hate... lots of other negative feelings. but then you must also realize one thing that, everyone is coming from different walks of life. Accept it.  They will one day realize your realized, and be in the way. Some, just don't get it and drown deeper.

If comparison has to come in place, I am super girlish as compared to thee I accept loneliness, thee are pathetic. from the bottom of my heart, I wish god bless you. Now I see what it means by 身不由己. Thank you for bringing me to somewhere I don't fit in.  Seriously, it was a cultural shock to me. I live way better than how I thought I were. I understand your sorrow but then I couldn't help. To this point I think I am useless in protecting my friends. Helpless.

♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥'s broken