Before a sleep

Two sides , blur vision exists.
Opaque side, good or bad?
Watermelon, uncut, perfect.
Watermelon, sliced, with seeds, flawed.
Do you always see things this way?
All from your point of view.

You wouldnt know that uncut watermelon is so sourish but the another one just so juicy!

Fine.i just wanna have watermelon for my stomach......

Look back the past, glad that you're different.
Good job to you!
Now you've become stronger, a lil.
I will continue to hold still my attitude towards you and things and all.
Im happy and selfish.
But i am more concerned about my happiness than your treatment.

Think in a way that delight and enlighten myself than pleasing other nonsense.

Enough! Lets go lankwaifong!

身不由己

If you could see both situation, standing in their shoes, no matter how heavenly or hell-y either one is,  you would still be able to look at it with one open heart. You might have reactions like unwilling, disgusting, frustrating, hate... lots of other negative feelings. but then you must also realize one thing that, everyone is coming from different walks of life. Accept it.  They will one day realize your realized, and be in the way. Some, just don't get it and drown deeper.

If comparison has to come in place, I am super girlish as compared to thee I accept loneliness, thee are pathetic. from the bottom of my heart, I wish god bless you. Now I see what it means by 身不由己. Thank you for bringing me to somewhere I don't fit in.  Seriously, it was a cultural shock to me. I live way better than how I thought I were. I understand your sorrow but then I couldn't help. To this point I think I am useless in protecting my friends. Helpless.

♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥'s broken

What a life

Casino, a place of fun for the mindless rich.

Very easy finger movement, but determines your pocket.

Place your bet, and have fun, or gg.

Now I understand why people come continuously.

They are betting their life. Support these continuously, unconsciously. 

Pitiful!

Expecting something good in return by pouring in large sum of money.

Where they don't possibly get back anything in the end. 

Ohh! Maybe free food and beverage? If it considered.

But I thought people said there is no free lunch in the world? 

You reap what you sow, it doesn't cost anything for the corp to free you something,

When you are giving them 100 times the cost of stuff they offer. 

:) good luck people!

泛滥吧，口水！

我发现说话滔滔不绝的人会有更多朋友。问题并不在于话题，而是量。大量！你必须要一直说个不停，别人才会觉得你是个人。就好像，不爱说话的人，是奇怪的。无论你在讨论某个头条新闻，说着哪个倒霉人的坏话，讨论着今天饭堂食物好不好，不等，你，只需开口。 而另一人也就跟着附和。或许一唱一和这样聊天比较有趣吧！可惜，并不懂得这精髓。我对日常生活失去热情，别问我食物好不好吃，别问我感觉怎么样。我只会说 OK，可接受。因为，有时候那些东西，真的没什么特别！我回应，只因要给个反应。 =) ♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ nothing.

New!

Hahaha!Smiling with my mouth wide opened. It's month end it's month end!!!!! So what does that mean??




SALARY!!! Oh my money!! Finally I have received my remuneration for my July and August!! This indeed brighten my life and ease things up in every means. So so, I'm excited to calculate and allocate where should this and that portion goes  then I don't have to starve myself on month end like my August time. It was torturing and saddening. Anyhow, it's over! 
I was planning to get a purse, but I see none that I like. Does that means I can save this portion to spend on something else? Or maybe I should save it and get a even better one in future? Teeeeeehee! Actually I don't need a purse as I don't have much money or cards. LOL But an ordinary human should have one I think. Umm.... I'll enjoy my purse hunting time. 
Also, one should reward oneself once a while isn't it? Like monthly......:p I've gotten myself a set of skin care products. Not a full set, but I would say kinda complete. Maybe just lack of the eye cream. >.< Or masks, or something else. I guess there are a lot more.

Dr.G, my favorite bb cream brand, though I've never used before.The bb cream has received many good comments, so just give it a try!Actually I was asking that consultant what's the difference between the A and the B,And then things just eventually happened, one by one its on my hand.Sigh... What a easy customer.Seriously I was planning just to buy the Neutrogena skin care set.They don't cost a lot but, a lot to me. Haha! Thus, the Dr.G,my reward for August.



By the way, I just dyed my hair. Expecting something blonde, the not obvious blonde.But it's more like dull yinyeong beverage. Haha!! If you get what I mean.it turn out quite nice, kinda like it, but after some days, I felt like I have never been to salon, I've never dyed my hair.Like nothing happened to my hair.Some body is gonna say something. Duh!Well, still a new me! I looked fairer! Hehe
What makes me satisfied the most was my fringe! I've never felt so natural before.I mean the front hair. Never had a satisfied one until yesterday!!LOL. It's abit over I know, but it's true.Thanks to Stephanie for bringing me to Class I And I've got a very sweet hair cut experience, like what she said, a back hugging!He is just so sweeeeet!!Me likey!! :)



Okay, Imma happy cat! ^^Time to sleep.
♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ Macau

Dead broke

A new start on my own. My shadow just left me on that day to pursue a course. It was him whom always stands beside and watch me doing. but now I need to be extra careful because no one is gonna remind me of any steps. I am on my own. but I am free! It is good, and also bad. Good as in I learn to work as a reliable rep,  where you have to take care of your responsibilities without any reminder. I realized that I was not that nervous in his absence. HAHA! Maybe he is a stress for me. Bad as in I might have mistake in certain part, and in order to avoid, I might be slower than usual. They emphasize on 零错误!  Even machine makes mistake, what say you? sigh.



I am dead broke!  Please please my payout date...!! Can't it be earlier?!








♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ life.

A not really new beginning

28/7/2013 

3years old, determine you at 80years old. I think this is a true statement. You can’t change your personality in just a day or a month time. It’s not like when you want to start a new life and then your wish will be fulfilled. Time is needed and most importantly your own effort is needed. Nothing will be changed if you say things without any actions. Nice. Just admit that you are what you are. And thus, a not really new beginning has begun.

Life in Macau, it could be awesome or lifeless. It’s all depends on your choice. Of course most of the time needs to look at your work schedule as well, not to mention the operations department. Currently, I am lifeless. Woke to work, back and sleep. It keeps going round and round. At least for the first week. Predictable, it would be continuously be the same for another 10 weeks which is about two months time. It’s fate. You can’t do anything when you are penniless. Luckily not homeless. =.= A friend asked me, where are you planning to go on your off day. And I said, I am not going anywhere, except to hand in a form to the office. That’s all. Because I can’t afford the entertainment and the expenses when I am out of the house such as f&b all, at least for now. It’s okay! Endurance is needed at this critical time. I would stay patient to go through this kind of suffering days. No problem.

Well, I’ve started my job for a week. I thought that I could handle this before I came here, because I have friends working in Genting before, and they described many about it so I thought, if they could do it, I can do the same too! However, yes, I should be able to take it, but with quite some effort and good memory! I know I will be categorized under the strawberry generation when I say need some effort in job. Well, which job doesn’t require effort? I know it’s not easy, but I am not gonna quit. HAHA! Say only larr, who knows one year later and I am gone? Be frank, on the first few days, I seriously tensed out! Sometimes, I couldn’t have a nice sleep. All my dreams were about my job the work. I forced myself to study the procedure again and again. It was like having an exam later and I am doing last minute revision. Sigh. 

I have a sarcastic senior. Sometimes some sarcastic statement just popped out from his mouth and I felt so irritated! “Alright, after learning for a month and you can go back to Malaysia!” =.= wtf! I wish I could give him a punch! When I said I don’t miss my home right now because just two weeks time passed, should I start missing Malaysia?! Then I am labeled heartless. =.= I seriously don’t know what to say. Understand that every company has a devil which everyone hates so much, it’s a norm but I just don’t like it! And I don’t like to act busy in front of bosses. I don’t like to talk when I am doing work. I don’t like to do useless things such as walking around the space, to show people that you are working. Why so serious dear boss? Maybe I am just too innocent and naïve.

Being innocent and naïve is not a bad thing. I wanna be a good person. HAHA. I don’t mind if you say “what a stupid girl”. Everyone lives different life. You can’t expect people to live the way you are. Right? You are aggressive, or you are after brands, or you are down to earth, or mean, whatever. No problem, just choose a tape and record your life in it. You direct your own story, don’t listen to anyone else. Those are just suggestions, not a compulsory step.

I always whisper in my heart, do what you want and what you like. Success is not a mandatory stage in one’s life, just be happy and be yourself, as long as you put in effort in living your own good life. Money is important. Without money you are nothing. Money is also dirty. With money you can do everything. There is no fixed definition for life, because everyone has their own pathway. Don’t get jealous on others, you will have it, if its meant to be. 

I am someone who don't care for the future. I don't yearn for a bright bright shining future. I just wanna live a peaceful and contented life with my own colours in it. That's all I wanna be, and that's where I am moving to.

♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ Life

21.7.2013

The first post about myself in Macau, but couldn’t upload instantly as I am still expecting the uncle to install the internet. Life without internet is just like a washroom without a door. Kns!

Start from my arrival, I saw first the City of Dreams, Hard Rock and so on because they are near to the airport. Just beside, I supposed. Well, first arrival, the luck that welcomes us wasn’t a bright one. (us as in myself with another colleague). SO NOT A GOOD DAY. Someone else accidentally took the wrong luggage, where supposable belongs to my colleague. LOL Insane! When I look at the two luggages it doesn’t look the same at all! Very luckily that wrong guy realized before he went to somewhere else, so we were able to exchange back. First incident.

On the other side, I am lucky too to have known this colleague because he has some local friends in Macau. So we don’t have to fan about the way to our budget hotel, instead we have a driver! HAHA! It’s really bad to quote him as a driver. Okay, so I was happily carry my luggage into the car and heading to our budget hotel location. While on the way, I saw those buildings, the Macau Tower, the signboard, road sign, and just another murmuring started in my heart that, I am finally in Macau! After months of waiting, I am finally here to start my brand new life! ^^ Not to say brand new, but at least I am on my own! I don’t rely to the family from now onwards, I won’t have to say “Maa..help me”…something like that. Only the first month where I have to borrow some money for house rental those.  

The second incident happened when we arrived to our budget hotel. The pipe was broken! Water was everywhere in the house. LOL. Such a dramatic event huh! But the owner was so nice that she reserved another hotel for us in next few streets. Meaning, we have to carry and push our entire luggage from one point to the other. Seriously, tiring! Almost 30kg on me! When we finally arrived, there was no elevator and its situated on second floor. Wuuhoooo…! Crazy! Thanks to my colleague for carrying the two 20kg luggage up to second floor, and when check out, carry it back to downstairs. Kesian.

Upon check out, we were being fetched to company by driver for trying on our uniforms and signing of documents and the like. Spent some time there. Haih. But why rain! I seriously admire the weather, it rains from 11 to 6/7pm nonstop. It was indeed irritating! I don’t like holding umbrella, walking in the rain, in the streets, where there was no space at all for you to move, since everyone was holding umbrella too. The street became so narrow and everyone was like rushing here and there, why so rush! I don’t like being push and asked to walk faster.

Oh yeah! And...also we went to CTM to get a mobile numbers, and after all I’ve chosen a package with 1gb data usage with 100minutes of calling. I just know that Macau is applying charges to both parties, means no matter you are calling or answering call, there is charges to your bill, and just know, Singapore is the same too. Why like that huh? I don’t really understand. So, the third incident happened. HAHA Seems the bad luck was with us all the time, but specifically to my colleague. Both of us chosen the 1gb with 100min prepaid package, mine was alright. But, for my colleague case, the salesperson did no registered the 1gb plan for him, just a usual mop100 prepaid usage in the phone, without the 1gb data. But did not know until he found out that he couldn’t go online any longer, while after checking data usage, it was only 8mb used. So we went to another CTM outlet, and they told that he did not registered successfully this plan. At last, he has to pay another mop100 for this plan. =.= What a bad bad super bad days.

Am so fatigue to get myself think back these incidents. It’s just too many! Well, story doesn’t end here. There was the 4^th incident. HAHA Its about our house loh! Simplified version, we were not allowed to move in until the owner has signed the agreement. But we have already checked out of our hotel and there is no any budget hotel around. Why why why! So end up I live in a luxury hotel, HAHA!  XD

PS: Macau has quite a lot of handsome!! 

♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ her job!

Please rain.

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.and still sighing. I couldn't describe my current state now. Its not that uncomfortable to stay at home this long. Who doesn't love lazing at home watching TV shows or spent some time on the dramas with one hand holding chips and another with coke? I love it!

Wasting time on the dramas, the korean shows, discussing with friend which movie to watch tonight, skyping with the friends over there in UK, and whatsoever, day and night. Woke on the noon, slept on the midnight. I am super duper free now. Free as in the bad way. I don't like it already.

It doesn't matter if you work from home, or if you are a housewife, or you are a boss! No body will have any words on you. It matters when you do not have a serious job and dumping your life into just like that! Yeah, who else? It's me, myself, the useless noob. At the time being, all the voices will come from your surrounding area. LOL. Yeahh, those who comes near to you and start showing off their nagging skills. How impressive and how it trigger you mood for the whole day.

ARghh! My brain is gonna explode, my eyes gonna have the intimate specs, and eventually gonna acquire bigger size clothes. LOL wtf! and its so freaking HOT right now that I couldn't get on bed. I can even see my sweat evaporating. kns! Having a nice good quality sleep is just another wish of mine. 

Please rain! 








♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ freedom.

What to say today

一直依赖着家人，永远无法消除惰性。

懒惰。因为衣来伸手，饭来张口。

If you don't start to make any changes to you life, 

you will always be the same kind of person.

as simple as that.

You can't learn, you can't grow, you can't proceed.

Your life will get stuck in a rut.

so, get set and move!

no ones gonna wait for you.

*please please mocha, act faster! *

Day trip

Went to Sungkai HotSpring the past day. and I was so lucky that my mc visited right on the day before. what a disturbance to me.

The entrance ticket @ RM12

Board on the shuttle, head to the hotspring!

35 to 40 degree? Nice.

Time to boil. You could not bring any food inside,

eggs, or your tapao for your picnic inside. NO!

Andwae!!

So the eggs are available @ RM5 for 6.

This is the place. :)

Well, since my enemy visiting me. 

No choice, I can only stay out of the water.

T___T

See them play. and enjoy my difficult time.

HAIZ

The girls.

Time to say good bye.

with this lazy pose. AHA!

Journey always get started at a strange point. Silly but exciting in the middle. and will be ended with some tiny issue.
Think about it.


♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ thinking

2.5.13 晴

如果说，家是避风港， 是一个安全区域， 当你呆久了，受保护久了， 你的自我保护能力会降低， 不再懂得什么是独立，靠自己。 战斗力会每况愈下， 越来越糟糕。 因为你知道无论如何， 你还有父母养你，不怕没饭吃，不怕被屋主轰出去。 受保护久了，活力也囧了， 生活变得更依赖父母，也不会再有勇气踏出第一步， 去寻找你想要的。
如果不踏出家门， 你不会知道自己的能力到哪里 也不会知道在外一个人生活会有多难， 需要多少坚强才能坚持下去。 只有在外面，你没有借口去懒惰。 只有在外面，你才能更独立的去面对每一件事。


我很想很想到外面的世界，目睹他们的精彩万分。 可是，我的第一步在哪里？






♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ wander

28042013

The night. The power house.
When I was in Singapore, a friend of mine brought me to this club, Powerhouse. to show me how is it like in Singapore club. I still think malaysia's better. haha! The point wasn't on the club, but the way of getting there.
When I was in my college time, there was some times friends and I rented car, just to go club. We thought of book a cab though... But I never experience taking the LRT or bus for our night. I did in Singapore. Is it a norm? Because its so convenient that the MRT connects every road every destination. I find it very awkward la. Imagine how a girl dresses for a club?  I mean not me. but a friend. Awkward, still awkward.  Very attention catching. Everyone knows where you are going. lol




♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥

从一个城市，到了另一个城市的故事。

这是与朋友的约定。 从八打靈到新加坡的旅程， 从一个城市，到了另一个城市的故事。 非常短暂，占据了人生中的十天。 花费仅剩的一点存款，获得了这些值回票价的满足感。 我爱旅行！
"The World is a book, and those who do not travel read only a page."  - Saint Augustine
新加坡，确实是一个不同凡响的地方。 治安，顶好。 不能说百分百安全，但是在这里走夜路，不用担心匪徒，不怕被人掳走。 在马来西亚？白天走路也会被盯上。 交通，方便。 真的，去哪里都搭地铁或巴士。还有，德士是豪华级的。空间大！司机Uncle有礼貌。相比我国，使用国产就算了，还要是空间极小，冷气不冷，有时候坐在车里还会冒汗叻！ 干净，一流。 新加坡的干净果然举世闻名。身为大马旅客，免不了会做比较。在新加坡，在地上看到的是树叶。而在我国呢，除了钱，你要看到什么就有什么。 厕所，高级。 哈哈。因为都是全自动的。一伸手就有水。我好喜欢新加坡的厕所！ 钱币，汇率高。 我想说的是新币价值很好。在新加坡消费其实蛮低的，前提是你要赚新币。同样收入两千，在新加坡，一杯星巴克是7块；在马来西亚，喝星巴克却要13块。这就是货币汇率的不同。

对于新加坡，有一点觉得很不可思议的就是他们的红绿灯系统。 真的不明白为什么当小绿人指示行人可以过马路时，同时间会有一条马路会亮起绿灯，然后车是可以行使到小绿人闪着的这条路。或许其中有些我不懂的原理，但是不觉得很危险吗？万一车子没看到，或是来不及刹车，怎么办？每次过马路我都过得很小心翼翼，真的抱着一种随时会被车撞的心情过马路。惊险！



在这十天的旅程，我留了不少足迹。 Bugis Street, Geylang, Clarke Quay, Orchard Road, The Shoppes @ Marina Bay Sands, Universal Studio Singapore, Sentosa Beach, Gardens by the Bay, River Safari, SEA Aquarium, Chinatown, East Coast...等等。 然而计划之中的一切，依然跟不上变化， 钱的变化。 呵呵。 严重超支。这趟旅程花了大概500新币吧！有些我朋友还帮我付了呢。要不然600？ 住的还是朋友家。省去了住宿费用，但还是到不了某些景点。 钱，你真麻烦！

“It‘s all about spending in a trip. It buys you memories, and memories.” 
照片时间。

到观音庙祈福。请让澳门聘请我。

第一次用新币买的第一份礼物。

在这儿喝的第一杯奶茶。 KOI!!

我的晚餐。田鸡加粥。

我在Clarke Quay乘凉。 

@TCC叹咖啡。

想玩很久了！Gmax...!!

仅属于Clarke Quay的夜生活。

在Orchard买冰淇淋给自己。

@Brotzeit. 朋友是超推荐这里的sausage。

他是我师父。找他请我吃小笼包。呵呵

@鼎泰丰吃小笼包

师父送我的马卡龙。 @TWG, MBS

TWG 的 Macarons。是有够甜。

漂亮可人的蘑菇。hehe

在MBS啦！去看Wonderful Show! 呵呵

^^

看show。期间释放的泡泡非常浪漫。

来到狮城的招牌动作？ @The Merlion.

@Esplanade，欣赏MBS

@无招牌吃早餐。又是小笼包。

终于来到了USS. 期待第二次。

小子，你很搞笑！

Madagascar character!!!

He is so damn lovely! OMG!

ALEX!!!

这妞真是！

pattern 多多！哈哈。笑翻现场所有人。

这五位帅爆了。Rockefeller @ Universal Studio Singapore!

You must see them perform!! Gwiyomi!! haha

红白蓝。红蓝。喜欢红。更爱蓝。

Day3 - 到狮城狂欢去！@Powerhouse St James

不是我骗人

Breezer lime真的很像桔子酸梅水

@SEA Aquarium. 全世界最大的水族馆。

要看大大大鱼缸就去吧！

这颜色太漂亮了。

小鱼尾狮。超可爱！

买给自己的两元纪念品。

走了好久的路才到这的。

@Gardens by the Bay. 惊叹号！哇哇哇！

去meet朋友啦！

Well, culture shock. lol @Paulaner, Clarke Quay.

朋友。long time no see.

: D

@乐天皇朝又吃小笼包

@River Safari

我好喜欢他们。Such an amazing creature!

近距离观看美人鱼。眼看手不动。动也动不了。

这是佳佳！

这是凯凯！别再吃了！呵呵

这就是美艳相机的威力。哈哈。滑多了

到East Coast踏脚车。凉风习习~~~

“I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel's sake. The great affair is to move!"

-Robert Louis Stevenson

就这样。结束我十天的旅程。

=D

♫♪ Diary: Lexy ♥ travel